Sacred Grove Rolling Pin

My Grandparents returned from their mission in Palmyra, NY about a month ago. They were in charge of tending the grounds of the Sacred Grove, where Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ appeared to Joseph Smith as a 14 year old boy.

There was a tree in the Sacred Grove that they were considering chopping down. The decision was made to not cut it down. The day that decision was made, that very tree was struck by lightening.
Decision made for them!
My Grandpa decided to make out of that tree, rolling pins for each of his daughters, and granddaughters for Christmas. (He also got some wood from the Hill Cumorah, but my specific rolling pin is from the Sacred Grove)
They are beautiful.


Grandma said we have to make pies with it :)
I've never made a dessert pie before (because I don't like them very much)
But I made chicken pot pie!!!



Its in the oven right now and I'm hungry!!!

Don't I look cute in that picture? Yes, I put a bra on just for that.

You're welcome.

Edited to Add: My table has a lot of flaws, but its clean. Promise. I bleached the tabletop, then rinsed with water thoroughly. Just in case it looks grody to you.

Tis' the Season

For everything to break.
Josh got laid off.
Our flatscreen TV broke.
Que the computer cord to break (for the 5th time).
Que camera to break.

But we got through it! It actually wasn't too tough. Because we have awesome friends and family to our aid. Random ward members would bring by food, friends would watch Kaius for dr. appointments and such, (and my mom doing both of those things) It would have been hard without the help, for sure.

Josh got a new job, as an IT recruiter. So if you know someone in the IT field (or something similar) and they are looking for a job, hit up Josh (or me) and he'll see what he can find for ya. He is loving it so far. He just cant stop talking about how excited he is about life now. He doesn't dread going to work anymore.

Kaius is as cute as ever. He now says Daddy & (if prompted enough) Mobbie (Mommy), ball, ruff ruff, whats that?, pssssss (please), and he has said once or twice "shoe" and "dider" (diaper). He mostly signs though. I was working with him for months it seemed on signing, and he wasnt ever interested until recently. He signs "more", "all done", "please", "thank you" & "I want to brush my teeth".
You don't mess with that boys' tooth brush. He brushes religiously twice a day and would do it for hours if I let him.
He has been hitting a lot lately. I guess thats normal for his age. Its quite embarassing when he does it somewhere in public. I feel so bad and don't know what to do. I just keep telling him NO, we don't hit. So hopefully it will catch on.
He LOVES balls, and is very good at throwing and is getting a lot better at catching. Yesterday when we got home from his dr appt, Kaius was looking at the book the doc gave him (yes, he gets a book at every appointment!) And it was a book of colors and for brown it was a football. Kaius pointed at the picture, and then pointed at the football across the room and squealed. Then I showed him he had a football on his shirt and he was so stoked.

Honestly, I kind of think he knows whats going on with the new baby coming. He pays so much attention to my belly. He kisses my belly a lot too. We talk about there being a baby in my belly all the time. He loves to rub and pat it. He has been a lot more cuddly lately too. He loves babies, so I'm excited to see how he reacts.

Speaking of new baby, we found out what we're having! Josh started his new job the day of the ultrasound, so I invited my girl Cammie to come with me.

and we found it is a

GIRL!

Names for a girl will be easier for Josh and I, I think. Anyway, in the ultrasound she kept her legs closed for about 20 seconds and then she spread them and I shouted "GIRL!!" and the ultrasound tech said, "yep!"
We are excited for her arrival in April. Everything in the pregnancy has been going well. I am so blessed. Craving everything sweet.
A yummy treat I found was to make sandwiches with graham crackers and cool whip, then store in the freezer and wa-la! tastes like an ice cream sandwich but very little calories. Which is good for me because I've been craving ice cream a lot.

I am really excited for Christmas. To spend time with family and for Kaius to play with his cousins.

Oh, and we took Kaius to see santa while we were in california. He kept his distance, but Santa was nice and gave him a bell. Much much better than a candy cane. He was definitely interested in the jolly old man, but not enough to go sit on the mans lap. I freaked out when I was little when santa came to my house (some ward members brought us by presents, dressed as santa and elves) and its...a strange man, with a bunch of white fluffy stuff all over his face. Screamin' red weird clothes. We'll see how he thinks of him next year.

Black Friday

Are there any black friday guru's out there??

What are the good deals? I mean, we aren't really looking for TV's or laptops. Are there deals on things like diapers?

Where is the best place to go? Do some stores have storewide deals, like 40% off most everything? I'm mostly interested in Toys R US and Babies R US. But can't really find much info online. Anyone know what their deals were like in past years?

A Gem

Update of the Brecks

For about 6 months a lot of people have been saying things about Kaius like "Wow your hair is long!" or "He needs a haircut!"
But I was trying to go for the surfer boy look! However, his hair is too thin or something. He isn't old enough for the look I dont think.

But cutting his hair short was like cutting away his baby curls, and I wanted to hang on to my baby. It was very sad for me.
But he looks cute.





Josh is responsible for how good it looks, since he is good at cutting his own hair.

Also, Josh received a job offer today for a company he really wanted to work for. Its about an hour away so we will have to move.
We have experienced Josh having to commute an hour each way before, and it was pure hell for both of us. Way to expensive on gas and wear n tear on the car. Killed our Lexus. Me dealing with a new baby and Josh being away 12 hours of the day...not cool. I know that he is not meant to have a job that keeps him away from his family. I will go crazy.
My friend let me borrow her book "The 5 Love Languages" and my love language is quality time. PLUS, dealing with construction on the freeway and UTAH drivers, is enough to put someone over the edge.

We are so blessed to have found this opportunity. We are sad to leave our ward here. I am sad to leave my girl Cammie. However...Josh will be coaching volleyball up here and so every Tuesday and Thursday I can probably still go ZUMBAAAAAA!
Im not gunna say its been awesome having Josh home the last month and a half. He has locked himself in our room 8 hours of the day every day with the computer looking for a job. I guess it has paid off! But it was kind of like he wasn't here. Except when Kaius had a poopy diaper, he has changed 93% of all the diapers. It's been GREAT.

my whole house is GREAT

Have you ever seen "Jessica's Daily Affirmation" video? If not, here it is.

I have had a couple people tell me that the little girl reminds them of me. What a compliment!
Cuz I do think I'm quite awesome. I was just born that way ;)

Well, I'm gunna just copy her in this post. Last night, Josh and I were brushing our teeth and I was telling him that because of parent-teacher conferences I don't have scouts today. Only when I was telling him, I was doin a JIG, I was so excited. He was like are you trying to be that Jessica girl? So I hopped up on the bathroom sink and did a little rendition for him, haha.

anyway, here goes.

I like my son!

I like my husband!

I like my dad!

I like my sisters!

I like my in laws!

I like my mom!

I like my brothers!

I like my ward!

I like my baby bump! And the baby! And the kicks!

I like my stuff!

I like my hair!

I like my haircuts! (which I cut and colored myself..I'm quite the recessionista)
Here is my only pic of it...its in Leia buns but you can see the bangs I cut and the color


I like my friends!

I can do anything good...yeah...yeah yeah.

Bad Advertising

Are these people really pro's? Did they even go to college?

You all know how I feel about Sara Lee advertising. I don't wanna watch people stuff their face/crumbs all over their face. sick. I don't want to eat anything now.

But here's another company that's gone way way WAY too far:



CHARMIN.
pieces left behind?? um, shut up.



Yes, yes I WOULD like to go a day without watching a bear take a squat every day on TV.

(Now would be a bad time to say, we use charmin. Its the softest and Josh is a TP snob. It would be the cheapest stuff, if it were up to me. Ya happy, Charmin? You just got the best advertisment, for free.)

Next up, General Mills Check Mark Dog Grooming commercial



Her hand gets a lot closer to her dogs....beeeehind.
Josh informed me that its normal for people to show their dogs that way at a dog show.
You know what I say to that?
I. Don't. Care.
Seeing a woman rub her dog's butt doesn't make me want to go eat cereal. Let alone General Mills.

Want to know my opinion on who DOES advertise well?


aaand for some reason I cant find any pictures from a few years back when they had lots of desserts like ice cream, cup cakes in place of diet dr. pepper...

Anyway, I'm not crazy about Dr. Pepper, but that picture makes me want to take a drink of that drink. They just show the product when it is in best form, with ice and the cool condensation running down the glass...

I think basically I don't like advertisements with people in them.

Kaius Turned One!!!!!!

This is super late, but we're lucky we even got any pictures at all, methinks. I had morning sickness and didn't do much of anything around that time.
Well, cake eating was anti-climactic.
He reached for the whole cake at first...thinking we would totally stop him.

But when we didn't stop him, he was just so upset that his hands were dirty.



All he wanted to do was cuddle his daddy to make him feel better.



Then, mommy took him on the grass to give mauling the cake another try.



Same thing, not happy.



Just wanted to cuddle.
But I didn't mind :)

Stats:
This chunker, being in the 90th percentile for both height and weight most of his life...was only 20th percentile at his 12 month appt. He stayed 20 lbs for like 5 months straight. He's just lengthening out now. His chubbiness is disappearing and as soon as i see pics like this one, its crazy how much is gone.


Updates:

Every day he's understanding more and more what we're saying to him. If we ask him to give us something he doesn't want to give up, he shakes his head from side to side.

He points at object and says "whats that??!" but it is pronounced "whathhhaaaaa?"

When I say "ready, set" he says "doow"

He has 7 teeth with one more on the way...yippieee.

When he sees someone he knows he says "Hi" to them, about 4-5 times. so cute.

If he hears any kind of music at all, he is bouncing up and down and waving his arms. He loves any and all music. Heavy metal, hip hop, classical...

I'm starting to try to potty train him. It would be awesome to have him out of diapers at 18 months when this baby comes (hey, supposedly Josh did it at that age! And Kaius is just a little CARBON COPY of Josh)

He loves kissing a hugging his stuffed animals. He has about 10-15 of them but I think his favorite is a big super soft Froggy that Katie got him at my shower. He loves kissing and hugging mommy and daddy too. A few weeks ago at church one of his little friends his age, Kellan, was playing with him and Kaius just leaned in and gave him a hug. Kellan's reaction was so funny, like "Uh...I like hugs but not from a DUDE" it was really funny. His mom Rachel and I are partners as Den mothers for the Bears. and they were both sitting in their strollers, side by side, holding hands. Now that I am typing it out it sounds a little weird, but at the time it was really cute. Anyway! He went in to kiss my mom a few weeks ago (sometimes they're opened mouthed, haha) and she thought he was going to bite her chin. But all he wanted was some grandma loves :)

He has been walking really well the last couple of weeks, getting pretty fast now and is almost running!

I can't think of anything else right now, but I would just like to state on record that I think this here baby on the way is a girl. The pregnancy has just been different. Im still kinda sick if I dont eat and that didn't happen with Kaius.

Epic Deer Watcher

We went to Steamboat Springs, CO for a getaway with some friends (which was amazing, and deserves its own post) and we were driving back this morning at 6 am. It was still dark and Josh was on full deer patrol. He is pretty amazing at pointing them out, I even informed the couple that was riding with us. Well, it was the girls and Kaius in the back (and we were all asleep), and the boys in the front chatting. We were going 70 and came up over a hill...to find THIS waiting for us.

But, pretend they are lined up across the highway, not grass.
No Joke, there were this many.
And as soon as humanly possible, Josh had the brake pedal to the floor and the tires screeeeeeeeched against the pavement, which immediately got the deers' attention (and the backseat passengers). They all started to dart right, except the one on the far left. He darted left. Which gave us a tiny gap, that I was sure our car wouldn't fit through. Josh swerved last second and made the teeny gap (which was probably on the opposite direction of traffic, luckily there were no cars) And as soon as we were in the clear, we all broke out the praises.
"That was AMAZING, Josh!"
"Wow, good job, Josh, I wouldn't have known what to do. I would have gone straight into them."
"me too. How did you do that???"
"Good thing we said a prayer before we left"
"Dude, that was like, video game good."
"Josh, I am thoroughly impressed. that was the most amazing thing I've ever witnessed."

You get the idea. He's irreplaceable.

Kaius' Current Obsession

This iPad commercial.

On time he was sleeping on Josh's lap and this commercial came on and he immediately shot up (eyes still closed) and started dancing, swaying back and forth. Josh started laughing really hard, cuz it was hilarious, and Kaius slowly opened his eyes. After the commercial was over he went back to sleep.
I finally found it on youtube because I couldnt remember if it was ipod, ipad, droid, whatever. Its been on repeat for a while...and he's not getting sick of it yet.

Giving Birth Analogy

Pregnancy...you pee on the stick, you find out the gender. Its all so exciting. The weeks tick by...and you know when you get to around 40 weeks...in order to get your baby, you're gunna have to go down a dark alley

and meet a big scary guy and he is going to punch you in the face. You don't want to get punched in the face, but it just has to happen to get the baby out.

Just because this is my second child, and I have experienced pushing for 2 hours, and a c-section once, doesn't mean that when it happens again with this next baby that its less scary. I still have to go meet the man, and he's still gunna have to punch me in the face.

I think I'm actually more scared this time around, cuz my uterus has been cut open before! The risks! VBAC or another C-section? Im not even deciding until the end. But either way will leave a mark! ah!

Addicted to Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers

For about 2 weeks I have been feeling the baby move around. But within the last few days, he/she has been poking out of my belly!
According to the internet, the baby is only about 3 inches long, so it must be the whole body sticking out! It happens when I go to Zumba and when I lay down to sleep at night. Today I am 13 weeks. That's crazy early to be feeling what I am, right? I know you can feel the baby earlier and earlier with each pregnancy, but first time I felt Kaius move, I was 17 weeks!

That's pretty much all I have to report. My morning sickness was done at 12 weeks, so I had to have my girl Cammie & her husband Malan over for the famous p-dub steak sandwiches. I can cook again!!!

:(

I went through my blog archives to see when the exact date my morning sickness was over last time. But I guess I didnt document that well enough. cuz I wrote "i dont know if my morning sickness is over today, cuz i have a bad migrane"

I haven't had a clean house in over 2 months. I have cooked maybe three meals in that two months. I've changed our bedsheets ONCE in the last 2 months. I usually do it once a week.

I've only been out of the house a few times (other than going to Zumba...which is pretty hard to get my lazy A to anyway)

That means I dont take Kaius anywhere or do anything fun. We play together in the living room but i would like to take him to the park and things.

I don't know how many times I've stopped at Arby's for curly fries. I dont know how many Wendy's stops I've made. Before this I rarely ate out.

On a more positive note:
No more BREASTFEEDING!!!! yahoo!!!!

(-side note-ya know those women who are super sad about stopping, cuz they are emotionally attached and will miss it? yeah, not one of those women. For me, it was the most healthy thing and it was free. I did it until it was recommended, which I guess is longer than most make it)

I quit about a month ago. Kaius began to like whole milk more and more, so I went down to twice a day, and then once a day, and the zero times a day.
Ever since then, he's sleeping through the night. and, AND he is cuddling with me way way way way more now. today he cuddled with me for like an hour on the couch. I loved it.

He knows how to kiss now (its still open mouthed but he totally leans in and has a sweet look on his face) and responds to a lot of things I say.
If I ask him to, he will point to his belly, his teeth/mouth, and sometimes he can get his nose. Every time I ask where his bum bum is, he says "bum bum bum..." And we are working on colors too.
Oh and if he wakes up in the middle of the night, Josh gets up with him. Its great. But i dont think i can physically get up.

Best Invention Ever

A girl in my babycenter group told me about these...

GUMMY PRENATAL VITAMINS.

I was skeptical at first, thinking they must be gross.

Well, I figured they are worth a shot, since I absolutely DREAD taking the pills. Everyone dreads taking them. They taste like garbage and the taste is left in your mouth. And every once in a while when you throw it up...you're traumatized and never want to take them again.
I will admit, I have skipped days because I would just put it off.

Well, these gummies are SO good. They are super soft and tasty. A bit pricey, but a lot worth it. They don't have iron in them though. But I'm not worried about it.
If you are pregnant or thinking about getting pregnant, you gotta get these! They are sold at Target and Costco. $11 for 90 gummies, and you take 2 a day. So each bottle will last 45 days.

Josh tried one and keeps trying to sneak them!

our AMAZING news

So I've been worried for the last week that I might be having a miscarriage. I'm 10 weeks along. So I called the dr. and they had me come in to check my HCG levels. Then 48 hours check them again, to make sure they double. They said they would call me Monday morning with the results.

This morning at 11:45 I still hadn't heard from them, so I called them. They said they had the results but hadn't had the chance to review them yet, so they'll get back to me. An hour later they called.
"I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but your HCG levels were supposed to double, and they went down 20,000. You are most likely having a miscarriage. We will have you come in tomorrow to determine whether you will need to take medication or have a D & C to avoid an infection in your uterus."

"is there a chance I'm not having a miscarriage?" I ask through tears.

"At this point, its not likely," She states regretfully, "I'm so sorry I just don't want to give you any false hope."

I say goodbye through sobs and hang up the phone.

I immediately text my friends and family members who have been supporting me through this to let them know the bad news. I'm crying right now because I remember so well the pure grief I was going through.
I pulled myself together to call my sweet husband. But the sobbing continued and he said he would come right home to be with me.

I was thinking, 'This is not how it was supposed to be. Kaius was supposed to have a sibling close in age. that was our plan. For the last 2 months I've done nothing but sit on the couch and watch TV. My house is a pig sty. I haven't cooked in 2 months. Josh has done so much to take care of me and Kaius. Feeding us. Getting me food when I need/want it. Giving me massages whenever I want.
Did all of that go to waste? Is this my fault? Do I not take very good care of myself? It is all my fault.'

It was about at that point when I got another call from the dr's assistant, "I forgot to tell you why there is a chance why it may not be a miscarriage."
(oh REALLY? You also forgot to tell me there was a chance at all.)
"You're just over 10 weeks right?"
yes...
"Well its about at that point that your HCG levels off and evens out and can decrease..."
Thats basically it, I'll spare you the other intimate details.
I looked online a little bit and basically it said HCG levels aren't always accurate to tell you whether your pregnancy is viable or not. Everyone is different. Not everyone doubles every 48 hours.

After I read that, I told Josh "That makes me a little bit mad. I don't think I had a miscarriage! I think they will find a heartbeat."
He said he hopes they do too.

Before the appointment I was unusually chipper. I wasn't worried about it.
After about 3 minutes of her looking for the heartbeat with the doppler (and hearing my slow heartbeat a few times), she decided to go a little bit higher and *swoosh*swoosh*swoosh* went that baby's heartbeat. Tears filled my eyes and I don't remember a time feeling as much joy (yes I do, when I heard Kai's heartbeat the first time...and his first cry)
She said "You must be further along than we thought!! The baby is pretty high!"
We were so excited she turned on the ultrasound machine and she showed Josh and I the little tiny flutter of the heart.

Thank you to those of you who knew about it for your prayers and support. It would have been hard without you guys.
She told me when we were leaving that now that everything is ok after all that happened, the chances of me miscarrying are less than 3%. Super stoked! Baby #2 is on the way!!!!!

Weird

On MSN.com when I logged out of Hotmail, it showed a story about why educators are separating best friends in class and why its a good thing. The picture to go along with the article was this:



I did a double take at the girl on the left.

Doesn't she look like....me?

photoshop fail

Have you ever seen a worse airbrushing job? When I saw it, I was like...it looks airbrushed but maybe she lost weight. I watched a few minutes of the show today, uh, no. She is not that skinny.
Now that I look at it again I see how horrible of a job the did photoshopping her.

Im all about curves, lets be reasonable though, ABC.

The Bob Sagat Dream

So...the other night I had a dream that Josh didn't exist and I wasn't married. Its like every other night I'll have a dream that way, and then every night in between Kaius and Josh are there.

Well, I remember considering in my dream whether I should marry Bob Sagat, because we were dating and I guess you could say things were gettin' pretty serious (kip from napoleon dynamite accent).

Well, laying in bed last night I vented to Josh: "I'm really concerned!! Why would I dream that? He was a better looking Bob Sagat though."

Josh knew right away what the reason was.

Our guilty pleasure, is watching this absolutely ridiculous TV show about teenagers that have "S" and get pregnant a lot, and are ALL SUPER UNREALISTICALLY open about talking about "S" with their parents...Do you watch it too?



Anyway...

Here is one of the characters:




I thought they were related, but no. For the record, I don't think either of these men are attractive, but Ben (the top one) is better looking. Which is more of who the person in my dream looked like. I remember when I was considering marriage I was like "i'd be famous...but im REALLY not attracted to him" and I was completely torn.

My Poor Baby!

So, I always thought people were over-exaggerating when they say they were up with their sick baby all night. Kaius hasn't really ever been sick before. He had a temperature of 101 all day yesterday, which isn't really anything to call the doc over, especially with no other symptoms. He just wanted me to hold him all day and sleep on me all day, which I didn't mind too much. Except the only thing I wanted to eat was ramen and its quite impossible to make that with a baby in your arms, so I had to wait for Josh to get home.

When "nye nye" time came, Kaius was waking up every 30 minutes, leaving me no time to get a wink in. Around 1 am he was absolutely inconsolable and felt super hot, so I woke josh up to have him help me take his temp. It was
103°

Which alarmed both of us. So I quickly got on the computer (after giving him some infant tylenol) to see if I need to take him in to the doctors.
Baby Center said the doctor will ask about other symptoms, which he didnt have any, and if he has none to just give him meds and watch him. After the meds he seemed fine but was wiiiide awake. I stayed up for another hour or so but he would cry if I sat. I was soooo tired I finally went into Josh and woke him up again saying I needed a break or I was going to go mad!
I couldn't have left him in his crib to cry it out when he is sick. That's just wrong.
I laid my head down and I was out.
He woke up about every hour after that.

This morning we got a call from Audi that our car is fixed. So Josh wakes me up at 8 am to go get it. I don't know how he did that successfully without me hurting him ;)

Well, I am obviously a basket case, so of course I forget my phone, and my house keys. So when Kaius and I come back to the house, we have no way of calling Josh or getting in. So we made today an adventure!
We went to a bookstore, Kaius was as happy as can be playing with books, toys, and other kids. There was a little girl there that said "babies can't be in bookstores." It was really funny. I got to finish "The Second Short Life of Bree Tanner"

Then we went to the bishop's house to use their phone to call Josh. Our bishop and his family are awesome. Then Kaius and I were hungry...sick of living off of cheerio's for the day. So we went to Smiths and got cookie samples! And spent a good chunk of time in the coffee aisle...oh man coffee smells soooo freakin good.

(but tastes gross...except frappuccinos and coffee ice cream...which I don't consume anymore..I'm mormon)
Then Josh saved the day with a pizza and a key to the house.

It was actually a really fun day. Thank goodness Kaius did enough crying last night for a month.

Some things I want to remember about Kaius:


-He is OBSESSED with dogs. He thinks the bark is so funny. He is always giggling when he sees them in real life, tv, or books.

-He is also pretty obsessed with feet/shoes. He got a hold of this baby girl shoe and put it to his ear like it was a phone.

-He takes anything and puts it to his ear since then and pretends its a phone...even if its an envelope and not shaped like a phone at all. He just babbles like he is having an important conversation.

-Today he learned "UH OOOOH"



-He says "mama" but says "dada" waaay more often. He'll just go around the house going "dad. dad. dad. dad. dad." and he says "Hi dad"

-He LOVES any type of ball and loves to throw them.

-About 30 seconds ago Josh offered him some pizza and he walked about 13 steps to him without falling!!! Nuts!

Kaius learning his Animal Sounds

This sweet duck pond and creek are right by our house!

I'm SO ECSTATIC...

I could cry. I got teary eyed.

On the way home from Zumba (so, the endorphins were already flowin..feelin good) tonight, I heard a radio advertisement. It was about PURPLE crying.

P.U.R.P.L.E. stands for:
Peak of Crying
Unexpected
Resists Soothing
Pain-like Face
Long Lasting
Evening

ever since I got pregnant/had a baby, it seems I hear about a parent/babysitter killing a baby at least once a week. It breaks my heart. I've been there, only a few times, where Kaius cries and cries and cries. Wont eat, Clean bum, Wont sleep. One time I was overwhelmed and started crying...right when the relief society presidency decided to pop in unexpectedly. I just love looking like I haven't showered/slept in weeks, not wearing a bra, and am blubbering like an idiot.
Anyway, I see advertisements for no drunk/drowsy driving, help with quitting tobacco, immunize your children, etc, etc.
I thought, "Why aren't they doing advertisements for not shaking your baby? Sometimes after trying EVERYTHING its ok to place them in their crib and walk away to gather yourself together." I wished they would make billboards. But I just didn't know who to contact about it.

Looks like someone took initiative. Bless their heart.

Things I Learned This Weekend

1. Krazy glue will kill your blackberry. So...no krazy glue using while Kaius is awake.

2. Krazy glue will also not come out of your couch.

3. Krazy glue does not come off skin easily, and sometimes gets caught on your clothes and it huuuurts.

4. No krazy glue when Kaius is awake (somehow not a drop made it on Kaius)

5. Fried plantains with salt and garlic are sooo yummy. Reminds me of a french fry with a hint of sweetness, but way way easier to make.

6. Somehow i fell deeper in love with my husband.

Thats it.

My Husband Thinks I'm Crazy

Getting ready to put Kaius down for the night tonight, ya know, getting myself situated to feed him. Josh says "Shouldn't you be done with that?"
"Done with what..breastfeeding?!" I am shocked, Josh is usually very supportive with all things baby. He helped take care of young siblings growing up.
He nods. "You are gunna still breastfeed him with all those TEETH?"
We just noticed Kai's top 2 teeth are coming in, so paired with the 2 bottom teeth, if he ever bites me he can actually draw blood. yay! But they usually learn how NOT to hurt you.
"Yes...I'll probably b/f him....until our next baby"
He gives me this "you're nuts" look and raises his eyebrows.
So I ask "What, you don't think thats a good ide-" "No." He interrupts me with.

Oh man I laughed pretty hard. Guess you had to be there.

Reflecting

I wish I didn't worry about life so much. I usually really don't. I'm frugal. I don't worry about extra stuff in life, such as getting my nails done, or going out to dinner. I can cook just as good as they can, for much cheaper. I like to think of myself as industrious...no thats not the right word...Frugal is really just it. I think its one of my most valuable qualities.
Lately I've been letting myself stress a little bit. Car trouble, losing a $10 at the grocery store, more car trouble, and more car trouble.

I havent looked at these pictures in a while



And this one, gave me butterflies.



And this one...reminded me of how well I am taken care of. Josh takes such good care of me and Kaius. Heavenly Father has taken care of us as well. Our needs are met and....that's all we need.

It also reminds me of all the times Josh would wait on me hand and foot when I was pregnant. Cafe Rio? coming right up. Back rub? right after I finish this song on guitar hero ;)

And those long hours before we both heard Kaius cry for the first time. He was so loving, caring, & attentive. We made a great team.

It was good for me to see these pictures. Refreshing.

Make sure the person you love knows how you feel. Today.

What I am Grateful for

I just wanna start out by saying ever since I did that post about removing captcha's so its easier to leave a comment, cuz i've never gotten spam comments....well, I have gotten 3 since then. Stupid spammers tryin to make me look stupid.

1. I am grateful for the time on this Earth I was born.
I don't have to wash my clothes on a washboard (aka, Josh's stomach) and dry them outside on a line with clothespins. I can take a warm shower every day if I want, and I don't have to make the water warm myself.
If I want to talk to a friend I can call, send a text, or facebook, instead of send a telegram and wait 6 months to hear back (or somethin)

2. I am grateful I was born into such a modern society.
I wasn't born to some African tribe in the middle of nowhere speaking a tongue click language. I live in a place where I can go to college if I want, go to the doctor if I'm sick..etc.

3. I am grateful to be born into an LDS family.
I grew up knowing what happens when we die, and our ultimate goal in life is to keep the commandments so that we can live with Heavenly Father in the Celestial Kingdom. Our cars, diamond wedding ring, shoes, designer handbags, and private jets are not coming with us to heaven. We will only take with us our knowledge and our families if we are sealed to them.

4. I am grateful to have a happy marriage.
Josh and I decided to tie the knot after only dating for a month, but while "courting" we spent a lot of sleepless nights just talking. We prayed about it and knew it was right. Josh is such a great husband and he does so much for me. But I am a lucky girl. Sometimes it doesn't always go as planned for everyone.

5. I am grateful that I have a warm bed (or cool bed) to sleep in every night.
I know I take for granted all the time what I have. Any day we could have a earthquake and lose everything. I remember one day growing up the hot water heater wasnt working and I had to take a cold shower. You don't realize how great something is until you go without it.

6. I am grateful for the chance I have to be a mother at this stage of my life.
I have quite a few close friends who aren't able to have children right away. I have no idea what to say to them. I try to empathize but sound like a complete moron. I wish the adoption process wasn't so rough. I want so bad for them to experience motherhood. I have every confidence they will someday. I pray for them lots and lots.
I probably sounded moron-ish during that last paragraph. I don't think I know how to express how I feel about it accurately, or something. My heart breaks for them but I don't know what to say.