Day 8 - Someone Who has Treated You Bad

Out of 7 of my working years, my boss at Zions was the only HUGE BIOTCH! HAhaha..I seriously have loved every job I've had. Loved all my bosses. Cept her. But she would yell at everyone and threaten jobs, leave the office for 4 hours straight to go christmas shopping, I blogged about her yankee swap gift exchange crap, she would talk crap to me about other people...to other people about me. Pull me in her office and chat for an hour about pregnancy and then get ticked when production was down...yeah... so I decided to peace out and start a family.

Day 7 - Someone Who has made your Life worth Living

Josh was the total knight in shining armor when I met him. I was dating a loser and Josh told me to stop seeing him completely if I was going to start hanging out with him, at all. I was pretty shocked when he said that, and to tell you the truth...I didn't even like Josh that much. I'd been praying for a way out and this was my chance. I remember that we were on the phone when he gave me the ultimatum. He was shopping at Smiths, and I was at work. He said he would remove himself right now before he got emotionally attached, and said to call him back when I made my decision. I had made the decision already on the phone with him, but I waited like 10 minutes to make it seem like I thought about it :P. I wanted Josh as a friend for sure, so that's how it started.

Day 6 - Something you Hope you Never have to Do

I hope I never have to go to my own child's funeral. Biggest overwhelming fear.

Day 5 - Something you Hope to do

*Yeah, I fell off the wagon. I didn't say it would be 30 consecutive days. But seeing my girl Sarah posting her 30 day challenge reminds me to continue mine. Although mine has been...still lame.

I hope to travel to Europe with Josh someday. I hope to always be able to live within my means. I hope I teach Kai & Roe important things, about church, money, credit, and priorities. I hope I always strive to keep my marriage strong and fresh. I hope we are something cool as a family for halloween.

day 4 - Something You Need to Forgive Someone For

I need to forgive Taylor. Sometimes I still think about what a stupid moron he is. And how he didn't think or care about how anyone else would be affected. I always hope that Josh was able to separate the 2 events in his mind, so that when he thinks back to Kaius' birth, he doesn't think of Taylor's death. Plus, we stayed awake until 2 or 3 AM talking/Josh grieving the night before I was induced (I didn't need to grieve yet, I was just pissed). Josh had to leave me in the hospital with brand new Kaius to go to the funeral. I was supportive of Josh going, but pissed that this death was no accident. It was controlled.

But you know what, I need to forgive him. I shouldn't judge him. I do not know exactly what he was going through. I have no idea what it feels like for my spouse to tell me I suck and leave me, and then find out they're pregnant (that would be extra crazy in my case).

Day 3 - Something you need to Forgive Yourself for

I don't think I have anything here for Day 3, but Amanda said something about yesterdays, how it wasn't about ME.

Right now is a time in my life where I feel like I'm not passionate about anything. I change diapers, make dinners, and do laundry. I don't create things. I am not in the best shape, so I don't dance super well, yet. I like lots about me but I can't think of something I LOVE. I love my hair, I guess. I don't think every girl wants the kind of hair they don't have ;).

Update on our car break-in:
Josh saw one of the kids that ran away had something in his arms. Tonight Josh was out playing with Kaius and they spotted a black backpack (couldn't be seen at night)on the side of the road with some car jacking tools inside. The kid I'm sure thought he was being followed and just threw it. Which means all day they didn't come back here to see if it was still there. Which means Josh scared the living crap out of them.

Day 2 - Something you Love about Yourself

I love my choice of husband.

He is also the type of person to have confidence sky-high, but he seems to always surprise me when he stops and tries to do something to make my life better or try to change to be a better husband. He searched a long time for a wife and I think that made him an even more awesome husband. When I first met him, I thought he was a total Me Monster. Well, he still kind of is sometimes (and he can admit it) but I know his intentions. For example, when we were first dating, he came over to my house and my roommate and I were trying to hang a picture in our kitchen. She and I started hammering the nail in and he snatched the hammer out of my hands and said "Oh I'll do it" and he just took over. Me and my roommate looked at each other like he was nuts. But now that I know him, looking back, all he was trying to do was be a gentleman.
OK, cheesefest over.