Memory Preservation

I have to remember this.

Today at church, during the opening song, Josh stops singing and exclaims, "Oh! I'm so excited! I just remembered the playoffs are today!!"
Well, saying that to someone who hates watching football on TV constantly (I'm burnt out, f'reals), it made me the opposite of excited. Kaius was in the row behind us sitting with a nice family in our ward. Kaius usually lasts about 2 minutes in Sacrament meeting before he starts melting down, so we were well aware of him.

Time for the good part of the story.

At the end of the opening prayer, after the prayer giver says "amen." I say "amen" and Josh says "cool" and immediately reaches back for Kaius.
Wait... "Did you just say 'cool' instead of 'amen'?"

Oh we had a good laugh.

Random List

I decided to do another one of these lists, since lots has changed since last time!

1. I'm pretty obsessed with cereal right now, mainly frosted shredded wheat. So far, Kroger brand is the best (better than Frosted Mini Wheats Brand)
2. I have a phobia or something of people touching my belly button. I don't even really like touching it. So, I clean fast.
3. Kaius is obsessed with his own belly button, plays with it when he is winding down. So naturally, he is obsessed with my belly button. Drives me crazeh!
4. Kaius has started to sneeze like Josh. Its like: "AAAH-CHOO. AAAAH" they just kind of yell afterward. Its cute.
5. Today my land lady said there would be someone by to look at the apartment to see if they want to move it. I spent literally ALL day bustin my butt and this place is immaculate. I even took off the magnets on the fridge. And they didn't show.
She should pay for a prenatal massage.
6. The last few weeks I got really into the Babycenter.com message boards. I thought it might be fun, and that I could make a lot of mom friends. nnnope. Most the women there are the biggest brats with no lives and say the rudest things because they are anonymous. So I stopped a few days ago.
7. I'm torn on how to decorate the baby girl's room. red and black to go with the giant high heel chair I have? hot pinks, and marigolds to go with the amazing quilt my sister made me? Or watermelon, because I love hot pinks and watermelon.
8. I kind of cant imagine how life will be with 2 kids. It kind of doesn't feel real to me yet. I don't know why....She is moving ALL THE TIME in there. I swear she never sleeps. Oh I better not have a cat-napper on my hands.
9. For about a month now, I've been feeling really uncomfortable. Like 9 months pregnant uncomfortable. Did you know, when pregnant, the chemical "relaxin" is released into your system to help loosen the birth canal so the baby can fit? This "relaxin" also loosens ligaments and can make you a little less coordinated. I'm finding this as I go to Zumba. I can't work it like I used to! Also, there is a joint called "symphysis pubis" and you can actually injure it. And the lady at my birthing class said once its pulled, it's pulled forever. Meaning every time you are pregnant you will feel the pain of it. I think I may have pulled that last time. (Have I blogged about this before? I think I have.)
10. So in conclusion to #9, I am going to be pregnant forever, again.
11. I haven't gotten mad at all this time, when people say I'm unusually big. I usually say it before they can! But last time it irked me so....so bad. I'm sure it had something to do with not feeling sexy at all, not working out, and watching the pounds roll in.
12. The other day Josh said "You look weird this time pregnant." (He pronounces pregnant "praig-nant". funny)
I asked why...scared for the answer.
"Because you are like skinny everywhere and then you just have this baby bump out of nowhere."
Oh, he scored major points.
13. I've only taken one belly pic so far this time. Just cuz I rarely look cute these days. And before I would have Josh snap a pic of me before we went somewhere. Now as we're going out the door I'm more concerned about having extra diapers and a full sippy of milk for Kaius.
14. No stranger has ever randomly touched my belly. I like it when friends/family do it. But I guess I give off a "touch-me-and-I'll-drop-kick-you" vibe.
15. I didn't get around to posting about Christmas this year, but go to my sis' blog here to read all about it. And to see the pic of us in our footie pajamas my mom got us. I didn't change out of them for like 2 weeks straight. Don't hate.
16. Dear Football,
Die.
Thanks.
17. Cammie got me Biolage shampoo/cond. for Christmas. My hair smells like....heaven.
18. I'm so happy to see success my friends are having with getting pregnant. I still pray for all of my friends that are trying to conceive, every night. So they better try to conceive, every night. (ha ha....kidding.)
20. I have no idea what to do in April...VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) or a repeat c-section. I know that everyone is different. But, I saw this girl on "a baby story" that had opted for a c-section with her 2nd baby, because with her 1st she had a 4th degree tear. yyyyyowza! She said she couldnt even take care of the baby for weeks. And I don't think I know any women who haven't torn. I don't want to go through the pain of recovering from a tear. And I have found women are split 50/50 on whether recovering from a tear or episiotomy is better. I think I'm leaning toward a c-section. I'm not as scared of that option. I'm terrified to have the same thing happen again. Push for 2 hours and then have a c-section. The recovery of c/s is way worse if you go through a buncha labor before. Or so I hear (I have nothing to compare it to). So subsequent c-sections recover better. Every time I go into the doctors office they talk to me about the 2 options for like 45 min each time. It must say on my chart that I'm undecided. Well, put on my chart that I'm undecided til APRIL. Sheesh.
21. Totally cravin sweets this time. But, I've been really good and haven't done ANY baking at all. I think I've made cookies like once in 6 months. Pat on the back!!

Alright. I think that's good. I'm gunna go toss and turn all night while my "round ligament pain" makes it impossible to get comfortable. I dread nighttime! So glad my pelvis hasn't started popping everytime I turn over yet.

Photo by Cammie

This is Cammie:



She's my Zumba Instructor & BFF. She is a Zumba machine. And she can rock a pair of JEGGINGS! Hello- leg muscles!

I seriously couldn't have lived without her the last 6 months. She does so much for me. Anyways! She took this picture of us:



Don't you think we're kind of awesome? Cuz...I do.

Something That Makes Me Sad

It doesn't really make me sad that Kaius calls me Daddy. Josh is the best daddy ever. Kaius just runs to him when he gets home...they rough house...its fun. I'm thankful for it.

What does make me sad?

Kaius hits me.

Every day. Multiple times a day.

Not only when he is mad, but when he is playing around. But when he's mad...he hits me square in the glasses.

It hurts SO BAD. I always tear up.

I've tried ignoring him. I've tried calmly telling him "we don't hit, we hug!". I've tried getting in his face a FIRMLY telling him to STOP. HITTING. ME. I don't hit YOU, so YOU don't hit ME.
I've tried immediately putting him in his crib, but I stopped because I don't want him to think I'm punishing him every time he goes in the crib. Like jail, right?
I've made a little time out area that he can't get out of, but lots of the time he does it when we are NOT in the house. Like when Josh is coaching volleyball, and he tries to run onto the court. (that happened last night. OUCH!! my face!!)
I've tried YELLING at him. But I could tell that hurt his feelings. He bawled and I tried soothing him and we cuddled but I don't like how we felt doing that.

He hits and bites other kids. He hits for no reason, but bites if he wants their toy. What the hale do I do in this situation??? I tell him we don't hit, and take him away from the child.

I've tried everything. But if you have any suggestions, I would LOVE to hear them. He has been doing this since he was a year or so. About 4 months.